26 जनवरी .. ek alag subah .

सरफ़रोशी की तमन्ना अब हमारे दिल में है
देखना है ज़ोर कितना बाज़ू-ए-क़ातिल में है
वक़्त आने पर बता देंगे तुझे, ए आसमान,
हम अभी से क्या बताएँ क्या हमारे दिल में है!

राम प्रसाद बिस्मिल के आज से करीब 92 साल पहले लिखी उर्दू की ये  कविता आज भी हमारे दिल में  देश भक्ति की भावना भर देती है.बचपन से इन पंक्तियों को हमने 26 जनवरी / 15 अगस्त पर सुना है.

26 जनवरी , गणतंत्र दिवस का नाम सुनते ही हमारे मन में हमारा बचपन flashback की तरह चला आता है. वो स्वादिष्ट लड्डू, दूर दर्शन पर आती गणतंत्र दिवस परेड, साफ़ सुथेरी,इस्त्री करी स्कूल की ड्रेस पहन कर दुल्हन की तरह सजे हुए  स्कूल में जाना , स्कूल में बजते  देश भक्ति के गाने , स्कूल मैंदान की मिटटी की सौंधी खुशबू और तिरंगे को सलामी देने के लिये गर्व से  उचा होता सर.इन पुरानी यादों से दिल में एक हूक से उठती है.
पिछले  4 -5 सालों से हम AID प्रयास में, इन्ही  लम्हों को नए सिरे से ताज़ा करते आयें हैं.
हर साल की तरह इस साल भी, प्रयास के सभी batch के बच्चे, २६ जनवरी को लेकर काफी उत्साहित थे . कई दिनों की मेहनत को आज उन्ही झुग्गी झोपडी के लोगो के सामने दिखने का मौका था, जो उन्हें केवल कूड़ा उठने के लायक समझते हैं.यह दिन था , अपने दीदी - सरजी की आशायों पर खरा उतने का.
इस साल एंकरिंग का दारोमदार था , हमारी चहेती चारू दीदी , नकुल भईया , प्रयास के ही प्रतिभावान  बच्चे सीफत और जाबाज़ का, जिसको सभी ने बखूबी निभाया.

सीफत और जाबाज़ के आत्मविश्वास को देख कर, प्रयास की सार्थकता और सफलता पर गर्व महसूस होता हैं .इन बच्चो की आगे बढ़ने , कुछ कर दिखाने की जो ललक है वह तारीफे काबिल है .
सभी कार्यकर्म चाहे वह नन्हा मुन्ना सिपाहियों का गाना , Senior batch के लडको और लड़कियों का ग्रुप डांस.सभी में बच्चो की जी तोड़ मेहनत और लगन दिख रही थी.
Senior Batch की जुलेखा का अंगरेजी में भाषण को सभी ने सराहा.
विशिष्ट अतिथियों में उपस्थित थे नयी दिशा की प्रिंसिपल मैडम, OM foundation से संजय सर और सुनीता मैडम.  प्रिंसिपल मैडम और संजय सर की उपस्तिथि  ने सारे बच्चो में  उत्साह सा भर दिया था .
बच्चो के साथ जो volunteer उनकी मदद  करने के लिये रात दिन एक कर रहे  थे उनकी मेहनत भी साफ़ झलक रही थी.बच्चो से जयादा वो  नर्वस नज़र आ रहे थे.
और हो भी क्यों नही , प्रयास में यही जिम्मदारी की भावना , एक परिवार की तरह मिल जुल कर काम करना,  हम सब के आगे बढते रहने की प्रेरणा है.
बच्चो ने एक नाटक भी प्रस्तुत किया , जो झुग्गी की रोज़ - मर्रा की परेशानियों पर रौशनी डालती है , चाहे वो स्कूल जाने मैं आने वाली परेशानी , ड्रॉप ओउट्स की परेशानी , लड़कियों को स्कूल न जा देने , बड़े लडको का जल्दी पैसे कमाने के लिये जुआ खेलना .इस नाटक को देख कर लगा , हमारे प्रयास , धीरे-धीरे ही सही हमारे प्रयास में रंग ला रहें हैं.
एक चिड़िया , अनेक चिड़िया वाली प्रस्तुति ने तो  जैसे बचपन की याद दिला दी.
एक बात गौर करने लायक है, जब भी आप - हम पब्लिक के सामने आते हैं तो हम स्टेज फीयर के कारण नर्वस हो जाते हैं , लेकिन प्रयास के बच्चों को कोई डर नही , कोई स्टेज फीयर नही.
आत्मविश्वास से और पूरे जोश के साथ अपना कार्यकर्म प्रस्तुत किया.

इन्ही बच्चों के आत्मविश्वास और लगन को देखा देखी अब तो बच्चो के मम्मी-पापा भी भाग लेने लगे हैं.मुफ्ती जी , जियाउल जी ने जो अपने बच्चो और खुद के परिवार में बदलाव महसूस किये , उन्होंने झुग्गी के लोगो को वो बताया.
मुफ्ती जी ने एक घटना का जिक्र किया.उनके बच्चे आमिर और हफसा ने बातों ही बातों में बड़े होके एक के डॉक्टर और दूसरे के teacher  बनने की बात तो जैसे मन को छु गयी.
हमारा सबसे बड़ा अचिवेमेंट तो महिला कक्षा की महिलाओं द्वारा, अपना अनुभव झुग्गी के लोगो को बताना था.

नयी दिशा की प्रिंसिपल मैडम के झुग्गी - झोपडी के लोगो को अपने बच्चो पर ध्यान देने और उन्हें पड़ते  रहने की जो शिक्षा दी थी , हमे आशा है  की वो जरूर कारगर होगी.
मैं प्रयास की तरफ से उन सभी  volunteer को तहे दिल से शुक्रिया अदा करता हूँ , जिन्होंने प्रत्यक्ष या अप्रत्यक्ष रूप से इस कार्यक्रम को सफल बनाने में महत्त्वपूर्ण योगदान दिया!
चारू ,लिंकन,नकुल,अन्विता, गौरव,अर्नव,प्रतीक, सुगंधा,श्वेता,प्रशांत,गुरविंदर,दर्शन,विकास,आनंद , विपिन,कविता  सभी का बहुत बहुत शुक्रिया !!
मैं प्रयास की तरफ से कनिका और शिवानी का भी शुर्कगुजार हूँ , जिन्होंने प्रयास के बच्चो को डांस सिखाने में कड़ी मेहनत की.
हर बार की तरह हमारे रजत सर का भी धन्यवाद् , स्वादिस्ट लड्डुओं  के लिये.
हमारे प्रयास के teacher ज्योति मैडम और कुल्विन्दा मैडम को भी बहुत बहुत धन्यवाद्.आप दोनों के प्रयास व् मेहनत से ही , आज प्रयास के बच्चे अच्छे नम्बरों से पास हो रहे हैं.और कुछ बच्चे तो अपने कक्षा में प्रथम , द्वितीय भी आ रहे हैं.

इस बार का 26 जनवरी यादगार रहेगा , बच्चो के दिन प्रति दिन बढ़ते आत्मविश्वास , सभी volunteer के प्रयत्नों , और झुग्गी के सहयोग के लिये.

मेरे दोस्त हमेशा पूछते हैं क्या है  प्रयास?
प्रयास एक परिवार है, जिसमें हर एक volunteer एक सदस्य है, जिसमें हर एक का योगदान जरूरी है.
सही मयोनो में प्रयास कुछ करने की इरादों को वास्तिविकता में  बदलने का जरिया है.यह एक ऐसी कड़ी है जो बहुत सारे युवक - युवतियों को समाज के उन सब पहलुओं को हल करने के लिये जोडती है , जिनको हम हमेशा करने की सोचते हैं लेकिन हमेशा परिस्तियों या सरकार पर ड़ाल देते हैं.परेशानियां और अड़चन तो सभी के सामने आती हैं और हमेशा आती रहेंगी लेकिन कुछ करने का विश्वास हो तो सब कुछ हासिल किया जा सकता है.

किसी अनजाने कवी की  ये पंक्तियाँ हमारा हमेशा मार्ग दर्शन करती रहेंगी ..

हाथो में हाथ लिये , चले यूही कांरवा
अपनी है जमी , अपना हे आसमा |
आये गए गम , आई गयी ख़ुशी,
मंजिल चाहे मुश्किल ही  सही

आगे बढे , हाथो में हाथ लिए , यही है दुआ
अपनी है जमी , अपना है आसमा

गब्बर सिंह' का चरित्र चित्रण

कल  रात  चेहरों  की किताब  (फेस बुक ) पर  ठाकुर  और  गब्बर  की  कॉमेडी  देखी  .. थोडा  विचार  करने  पर  लगा  क्या  पेर्सोनालिटी  था  गब्बर  भी .. शोले  की  कहानी  ..एक  थोथली  कहानी  होती  अगर   गब्बर  न  होता .. बस  यही  विचार  हमारे  बीच  वार्तालाप  का टोपिक  बन  गया  और  ..गब्बर  की  आज  के  समय  मैं  प्रभाविता  और  योगदान  कुछ  इस  तरह  से है  .. 

1. सादा जीवन, उच्च विचार: उसके जीने का ढंग बड़ा सरल था. पुराने और मैले कपड़े, बढ़ी हुई दाढ़ी, महीनों से जंग खाते दांत और पहाड़ों पर खानाबदोश जीवन. जैसे मध्यकालीन भारत का फकीर हो. जीवन में अपने लक्ष्य की ओर इतना समर्पित कि ऐशो-आराम और विलासिता के लिए एक पल की भी फुर्सत नहीं. और विचारों में उत्कृष्टता के क्या कहने! 'जो डर गया, सो मर गया' जैसे संवादों से उसने जीवन की क्षणभंगुरता पर प्रकाश डाला था.

२. दयालु प्रवृत्ति: ठाकुर ने उसे अपने हाथों से पकड़ा था. इसलिए उसने ठाकुर के सिर्फ हाथों को सज़ा दी. अगर वो चाहता तो गर्दन भी काट सकता था. पर उसके ममतापूर्ण और करुणामय ह्रदय ने उसे ऐसा करने से रोक दिया.


3. नृत्य-संगीत का शौकीन: 'महबूबा ओये महबूबा' गीत के समय उसके कलाकार ह्रदय का परिचय मिलता है. अन्य डाकुओं की तरह उसका ह्रदय शुष्क नहीं था. वह जीवन में नृत्य-संगीत एवंकला के महत्त्व को समझता था. बसन्ती को पकड़ने के बाद उसके मन का नृत्यप्रेमी फिर से जाग उठा था. उसने बसन्ती के अन्दर छुपी नर्तकी को एक पल में पहचान लिया था. गौरतलब यह कि कला के प्रति अपने प्रेम को अभिव्यक्त करने का वह कोई अवसर नहीं छोड़ता था.


4. अनुशासनप्रिय नायक: जब कालिया और उसके दोस्त अपने प्रोजेक्ट से नाकाम होकर लौटे तो उसने कतई ढीलाई नहीं बरती. अनुशासन के प्रति अपने अगाध समर्पण को दर्शाते हुए उसने उन्हें तुरंत सज़ा दी.

5. हास्य-रस का प्रेमी: उसमें गज़ब का सेन्स ऑफ ह्यूमर था. कालिया और उसके दो दोस्तों को मारने से पहले उसने उन तीनों को खूब हंसाया था. ताकि वो हंसते-हंसते दुनिया को अलविदा कह सकें. वह आधुनिक यु का 'लाफिंग बुद्धा' था.


6. नारी के प्रति सम्मान: बसन्ती जैसी सुन्दर नारी का अपहरण करने के बाद उसने उससे एक नृत्य का निवेदन किया. आज-कल का खलनायक होता तो शायद कुछ और करता.


7. भिक्षुक जीवन: उसने हिन्दू धर्म और महात्मा बुद्ध द्वारा दिखाए गए भिक्षुक जीवन के रास्ते को अपनाया था. रामपुर और अन्य गाँवों से उसे जो भी सूखा-कच्चा अनाज मिलता था, वो उसी से अपनी गुजर-बसर करता था. सोना, चांदी, बिरयानी या चिकन मलाई टिक्का की उसने कभी इच्छा ज़ाहिर नहीं की.


8. सामाजिक कार्य: डकैती के पेशे के अलावा वो छोटे बच्चों को सुलाने का भी काम करता था. सैकड़ों माताएं उसका नाम लेती थीं ताकि बच्चे बिना कलह किए सो जाएं. सरकार ने उसपर 50,000 रुपयों का इनाम घोषित कर रखा था. उस युग में 'कौन बनेगा करोड़पति' ना होने के बावजूद लोगों को रातों-रात अमीर बनाने का गब्बर का यह सच्चा प्रयास था.


9. महानायकों का निर्माता: अगर गब्बर नहीं होता तो जय और व??रू जैसे लुच्चे-लफंगे छोटी-मोटी चोरियां करते हुए स्वर्ग सिधार जाते. पर यह गब्बर के व्यक्तित्व का प्रताप था कि उन लफंगों में भी महानायक बनने की क्षमता जागी.

Pay rise in salary of Indian MPs

Our Members of Parliament (MP) (and state legislators as well) want to be called honourable, though they do not eschew the things they supposed to do. They are covetous and not beyond robbing the state till. What else can you call the sanctioning for themselves 100% rise in their salaries. But first the facts.

MPs can look forward to a hefty hike in their salaries, which are likely to shoot up over an unprecedented 100 per cent. The current salary of a member, including perks, comes to about Rs.42,000 per month and the government is hiking it to a minimum of Rs.80,000.

Charandas Mahant, MP, who is heading a committee formed last year to go into MPs salaries and allowances, has discussed the proposal with Finance Minister Pranab Mukherjee. The Mahant committee has said since MPs’ positions are higher in protocol compared to government secretaries, they should get more pay than the latter. At present the secretary gets around Rs.80,000 besides 47 per cent Dearness Allowance which together come to Rs.1.2 lakh per month on average. The panel is said to have argued that the government should enhance the salaries of MPs to more than Rs.1.2 lakh or at least more than Rs.80,000 that the secretary gets without DA.

At present, a member gets a salary of Rs.16,000, Rs.20,000 as constituency allowance and Rs.6,000 towards stationary allowance. He/she also gets up to Rs.14,000 towards staff but this amount directly goes to the bank account of the staff. Other perks include free travel on both Indian Railway and business class by air, constituency allowance, daily allowance for signing the parliament roster, free electricity, phone etc. As regards travel, they can make 34 trips to Delhi from their constituencies apart from those for attending meetings. As regards train travel there is no restriction. They are entitled to travel on the highest class along with their spouse besides a companion who can travel second class AC.

The increase in salary amounts to robbing the state treasury because the MPs have voted it for themselves. For the babus the increase in salaries is recommended by periodically appointed pay commissions and are examined and decided by the government. There are two levels of checks and balances when salaries are decided for babus. In the case of MPs, they decide it for themselves This is bad in principle and gives a bad example for the rest of citizens.

Apart from the principle and example angles, MPs don’t deserve any rise if the work they do (or don’t do) is considered. As The Times of India editorially commented, “Our MPs clearly don’t deserve a salary hike. Any pay rise should be linked to performance. But the track record of Indian MPs in the recent past has been poor, to say the least. They have neglected one of their basic duties – crafting and debating legislation. The figures of business conducted in Parliament speak for themselves. The number of sittings of the Lok Sabha has come down from a yearly average of 124 in the first decade of 1952-61 to 81 between 1992-2001, a decline of 32 per cent. For the same period, the decline of Rajya Sabha was 20 per cent. This has had direct impact on the number of Bills passed by Parliament. The annual average of the number of Bills passed has come down from 68 in the first decade to 50 between 1992-2001. This hasn’t got any better in the past few sessions of Parliament. The government could only get six of the 27 planned Bills for the Budget session passed.”

I saw the latest news about Parliament suggestion to give 3G phones to all MPs at http://www.dinamalar.com/News_Detail.asp?Id=37280. What an idea sirji..? They can rise petrol and diesel prices and they can cover the ass of ambani's and mittals. Why should MPs think about that..? Their intention is all about how to fill their bank account with lump some money. Below are few things listed where our MPs aren't thinking about finding solution.

* Bhopal gas tragedy
* Naxalites problem
* Kashmir communal issues
* Coal mine problem in many states

Forget about MPs, think about the media and their duties. I am so happy about the behavior of fourth pillar of indian democracy - media last week. Why should they are caring about all above mentioned issues when they have high profile Dhoni's marriage coverage.? Why should they want to think about people issues. Their only aim is give coverage proportion to fill film stars interviews/cricketer's function. It was ashamed that Headlines Today put flash news about "I hate Love storys" review. Cum'on .. we have more issues to talk or address about.

Role Model..

Do I want fame like Shah Rukh Khan’s? Do I want success like Sachin Tendulkar’s? Do I want beauty like Aishwarya Rai’s? Do I want intelligence like Dr Kalam’s? Do I want compassion like Mother Teresa’s? Do I want power and courage like Kiran Bedi’s? Do I want to be a good human being, like my parents are? Or do I just want be myself?


These are some questions that flit between our unconscious and conscious mind. Such questions not only help us formulate our own characteristic features but also help us choose our ideal persona. That choice determines our oneness with that ‘other’, which we generally call ‘role model’.

Although it has come to have a variety of connotations — from a source of inspiration to a social icon — the phrase quite literally means a model for a role, a person one can strive to emulate. For example ‘Dr APJ Abdul Kalam’ is more than a name — it is a symbol of dreaming big, realising those dreams and inspiring others to do so. Dr Kalam is not just a huge success — the son of a fishing boat owner who went on to become a rocket scientist and then the President of India — but he also embodies the right values. In short, a role model in every way.

Children choose role models for themselves as early as the pre-school years, according to a theory of Dr Amy Beth Taublieb, a clinical psychologist. The type of model changes with the development level of the child. It is the youth, with the unlimited possibilities of the future before them, who are influenced by the people that inspire them to fly high.
Today’s role models are associated with money, beauty and fame. Actors and rock stars have become the centre of attention as our heroes in the 21st century. But a good role model is someone we should want to be like because we see value in his or her actions. The role models people choose reflect the type of values they have and the society they will create.

We often do not recognize our true role models until we have noticed our own personal growth. Thus, we need to keep the following points in mind before defining our source of inspiration:

Confidence: Choose someone who has a lot of confidence in himself/herself and in his/her abilities. A good role model would be someone who knows who he or she is.

Genuineness: You do not want role models who would pretend to be something they are not, and would fake a personality to suit others.

Individuality: Choose someone who thinks it is alright to be unique, even if that means facing some ridicule. They should make you feel good about being yourself; they should not make you compare yourself to them and wish you were prettier or richer.

Empathy: Choose someone who is kind and can communicate with people.

Skills: Look for someone who is living life the way you would like to. If you want to be a famous author, your role model could be someone who is a success at writing.

With these points, plus our intuition or faith, we can create a picture of the ideal self that we really aspire to be. Then we just need to take one step forward to close the gap between that ideal self and the real self.

Udaan Jindgi ki

Hai Tamanna yahin bas Kuch zyada nahi! !
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udu to udu bas niche na giru! !
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le jaun apne is bhanwar ko! !
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Jahan is kasti ko kinara mile! !
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mile jo bhi mile! !
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is parinde ko ek sahara mile! !
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apni manzil kaha hai ye to nahi malum! !
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par jahan pahunchu wo bhi ek manzil ka kinara hi mile! !
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samne jo bhi ho use ek sahara mile! !
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zazbaat ke samundar me gahrai ka nazara mile! !
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zeevan to zeevan hai sukh aur dukh ka kinara mile! !
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mangu yahi hai Vidhata dena apna sahara! !
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chahe wo ho tinka yaa ho sapno ka kinara! !
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hai Tamanna yahin bas Kuch zyada nahi! !
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udati rahi hun apne hi umango mein kahi! !
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Hai Tamanna yahin bas Kuch zyada nahi! !
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Why...........

Why each tear from my eyes dripping away for you,
Why night is not complete without driffting thought of you,
Why each ache of love is for you,
why each hatered is for you,
why i want to drenched into your love,
i know you are and will be happy,
but why each pore of my body wants you so back,
Why each movie remined the moment spent with you,
it just me or each victim of love,
Still wishing you a happiness all above.

Think ..

THINK .

 There was
a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She
hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always
there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see
the world, I will marry you.'

One day,
someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages
came off, she was able to see everything, including her
boyfriend.

He asked
her,'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The
girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The
sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected
that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life
led her to refuse to marry him.


Her
boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her
saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before
they were yours, they were mine.'


This is
how the human brain often works when our status changes.
Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who
was always by their side in the most painful situations.

Life Is a
Gift


Today
before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't
speak.

Before
you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone
who has nothing to eat..

Before
you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone
who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

Today
before you complain about life - Think of someone who is no longer alive ....

Before
whining about the distance you drive Think of someone who
walks the same distance with their feet.

And when
you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the
unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your
job.

And when
depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on
your face and think: you're alive and still
around..

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I PRAY
THIS MOVES AROUND
THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE.....

Packing bags ..

At last got invitation letter and confirmed travel tickets back to india for a short 1 week trip. You know what .. 2009 was one of the greatest year for me . one of the best year ..in which many of my awaiting dream just come true .. as is a part of pre planned , well rehersed activity.I was craving for a  US trip for many year , traveling in Big planes .. see lots of places ...and its like dream come true.From september  09 .. it has been back and forth between Delhi  , Chicago , New york , Amesterdam , Frankfurt , Detroit , saginaw , St luis , washington .. and many long hawl trip.I am traveling India like i am going home from Noida after each three months.It is fun .. meeting diferent people , some time strange ones,most of the time polite ( 2nd best thing about US ) .. Different aiports , different air crafts  ranging from Boeing 747 - 400 , Airbus 320 ( Awesome and really a Huge plane ) to Jets like CRJ 200 and to microjets BE - 400A.. it is , it was a really good experience ..

Diving into childhood..

Just completed Snow man .. aahh .. tired . my whole body is still in strees from snow goose bumps.
One of the best thing being in North US is .. plenty of snowy days .. It was awesome fun.. after a long time threw "Mature mannerism " and dive into childhood.After a long time doesn't care about anybody.And you know what it was .. it is pretty satisfying.It has been more then 3 months living alone ... nobody to talk.But now i realise .. why you care about others .. you yourself capable of having so much fun.Making a snow man .. is like creating a human by a God hand .  how do you want to him be look like .. how would be his face expression... how tall . faling to put some proper fat ( i mean snow ) .. or mistakenly putting extra weight .. imagine ..It is simple life less a blog of snow .. If God created us . how much time it take him to create a so exqusitic , complex and marvelous human body.
Being in doctor's family .. i got a chance to peep one of the most rarest places , like twin lobes of mind ( MRI and 4 D images ) , complex and crucial funtonality of human heart.. it always amaze me . how distingushly and marvelously human body has been crafted .. and we  "selfish bastards" just destory it helplessly...ahh too philosphycal ..
I need a Hot chocklate now .. c ya .. pics .. i ll upload .. to dark to get a pic .

You are here to be you... just you,...

I read a story which resemble to my life events .. here it is ..

A plum once said, just because a banana lover came by, I converted
myself into a banana. Unfortunately, his taste changed after a few
months and so I became an orange. When he said I was bitter I became an
apple,but he went in search of grapes. Yielding to the opinions of so
many people, I have changed so many times that I no more know who I am.
How I wish I had remained a plum and waited for a plum lover.

So true .. many times in life i changed .. i pretend to be what i am not.I pretend to be that person which he/she like.. i have done all possible things for that.lie , manipulations ..
I always run towards that admire, that praise ..and then pretend.. It never gave me happiness .. One day I realised it was all vain.I realised Just because a group of people do not accept you as you are, there is no necessity for you to strip yourself of your originality. You need to think good of yourself, for the world takes you at your own estimate.If you doesn't love yourself . how come other can??? If you bored with your company how can others ..
You need to think good of yourself, for the world takes you at your own estimate. Never step down in order to gain recognition. Never let go of your true self to win a relationship. In the long run, you will regret that you traded your greatest glory - your uniqueness, for momentary validation.Even Gandhi was not accepted by many people. The group that does not accept you as you is not your world.There is a world for each one of you, where you shall reign as king /queen by just being yourself. Find that world... in fact, that world will find you.What water can do, gasoline cannot and what copper can, gold cannot.The fragility of the ant enables it to move and the rigidity of the tree enables it to stay rooted. Everything and everybody has been designed with a proportion of uniqueness to serve a purpose that we Can fulfil only by being our unique self. You as you alone can serve your purpose and I as I alone can serve my purpose. I am here to be me .. just me and You are here to be you...just you.

Dream come true ... Traveling to US

It has been my one of the empty check box in my top 100 things to do before i die ... ( yeah you can say hangover of Dasvidaniya ) to travel US.. to go on site .. travel different places .. see different places .. interact with different culture .. different food habits .. see different currencies .. and now within a week it gonna be true.yeah i am going on site.. US here i am coming ..

I need an inspiration

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on...

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need em again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind..

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere..

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions..

There are moments when I don't know if it's real,
Or if anybody feels the way I feel,
I need inspiration,
Not just another negotiation..

Silence .....

Why Silence has so much importance?? I searched for few answers and in fact all the scriptures have almost common thing.Then i read about Buddha - the emperor who gave all in search of truth, to understand true meaning of life.

When Buddha got enlightened on that full moon day in the month of May, it is said that he maintained silence for the whole week. He did not say a word.. Mythology says that all the angels in the heaven were frightened. They knew that it was only once in a millennium that someone blossoms like Buddha. Now he was silent! The angels then requested him to say something. He said, “Those who know, they know even without my saying and those who do not know, will not know even if I say something. Any description of light to a blind man is of no use. There is no point in talking to those who have not tasted the ambrosia of life, and therefore I am silent. How can you convey something so intimate and personal? Words cannot. And as many scriptures in the past have declared words end where truth begins.”

The angels said, “What you say is right. But consider those who are on the borderline, who are neither fully enlightened nor totally ignorant.For them, a few words will give a push, for their sake you speak and every word of yours will create that silence.”

The purpose of words is to create silence. If words create more noise, then they have not reached their goal.

Buddha's words would definitely create silence, because Buddha is the manifestation of silence. Silence is the source of life and is the cure for diseases. When people are angry, they maintain silence. First they shout and then comes the silence. When one is sad, they ask to be left alone and retreat into silence. Similarly, silence is the recourse one takes to if ashamed. If one is wise too, there’s silence.

When Jesus was asked, “Are you the son of God?” he kept silent; it was the wisest thing to do. When you are telling someone you have a pain in the leg and they want you to prove it, how is that possible? When you cannot prove something as deep as pain how can you prove something like enlightenment or divinity? Joy and fulfillment bring silence while desire brings noise.

Look at the noise in your mind. What is it about? More money? More fame? More recognition? Fulfillment? Relationship? The noise is about something; silence is about nothing. Silence is the basis; noise is the surface.

From the very beginning Buddha lived a very satisfied life. Any pleasure was at his feet the moment he wanted it. One day he said, “I would like to go and see what the world is.” He started thinking when he saw someone who was sick, someone who was old and someone who was dying. These three instances were good enough to bring in him the knowledge that there is misery. When he saw someone sick, he said, “enough! I have experienced it.” Just one glimpse of an old man and a corpse was enough Buddha said, “there is no joy in life; I am dead already! There is no meaning in life. Let me go back.” Buddha set out in quest of truth, all by himself, leaving his palace, wife and son. Stronger the silence, powerful will be the questions that arise from such a silence. Nothing could stop him. He knew he wouldn’t be able to get away during day, so he quietly escaped at night and his search continued for several years.

He did all that people told him to do, he went from place to place, fasted, and he walked many paths, before discovering four truths.

1 : “There is misery (Dukha) in the world.” In life, there are only two possibilities: one is to observe the world around us and know from others’ suffering and futile exercises, the second is experience it and find that it is misery. There is no third possibility. If you are sensitive, you don’t need to go through all that yourself. You can look at those who are suffering and become wise.

2 : The second truth is, “There is a cause for misery.” You can be happy without a reason. Joy does not need a reason, laughter does not need a joke but misery has a cause.

3 : The third truth is, “It is possible to eliminate misery.”

4 : The fourth truth is, “There is a path to be out of misery.”

Following the four truths, he gives the eight-fold path of right equanimity, right vision, right silence, right meditation etc.

Buddha also said that the three things to do are Sheela, which means conduct, Samadhi, which means an equanimous meditative state, and Pragya, which means awareness. Buddha was born at a very interesting time in India’s history, at a time when India was prosperous and had reached its height in philosophical thinking. In a highly intellectual society, people think they know it all, but in fact, they have not known at all. This was the case in India. So Buddha said, “Come, I have a simple technique for you. Keep your concepts to yourself, but just come and sit.” Then Buddha gave them four steps.

They are:

1 : Observe the body (Kayaanu Paschana)

2 : Observe the sensations (Vedananu Paschana)

3 : Observe the flow of mind (Chittanu Paschana)

4 : Observe your true nature (Dhammanu Paschana)

So, Buddha spoke and taught for years. Thousands would sit still, observe and meditate and become free. Buddha would not indulge in any philosophic discussion. I think it is mandatory for every psychologist to study Buddha! . Buddha has propounded all that there is to know about the mind and its functions in such a methodical manner. Mind is noise; the source of the mind is silence. That’s why Buddha said, “no mind”. He was referring to the chain of thoughts that simply wander in the mind all the time. At a time when there was so much prosperity, Buddha gave a begging bowl to his main disciples and asked them to go and beg! He made kings take off their royal robes and take a bowl in their hand! Not that they were in need of food but he wanted to teach them the lesson of becoming ‘nobody’ from being ‘somebody’. You are nobody; you are insignificant in this Universe. When kings and geniuses of that time were asked to beg, they became embodiments of compassion. Observe your true nature. What is your true nature? It is peace, compassion, love, friendliness and joy and it is silence that gives birth to all this.. Silence swallows the sadness, guilt, and misery and gives birth to joy, compassion and love. Buddha came to take away the misery, the guilt, the fear, the arrogance, the ignorance, and bring back wisdom, strength, beauty, knowledge and peace.

I MISS YOU… Still…

I miss you when I cry,
Because you are no more there to hold me,
I miss you when I am happy,
Because you are no more there to share it with me,
I miss you when I m troubled,
Because you are no more there to understand me.
I miss you when it rains,
Because you are no more there to tease me.
I miss you when I am awake,
Because you are no more there to talk to.
I miss you when am trying to sleep,
Because you are no more there to text me good night.
I miss you when I am asleep,
Because you are no more there in my dreams.

I miss you all the time,
But especially when I think of all the good times we spent together,
And now I realize how I have lost them,
They were the best moments I spent with you.I
try to hear the raindrops falling on the roof,
But all I hear are my tears falling on the cheeks,
And know that I am missing you.

It felt so good when you said am special and close to you,
You made me feel like an angel,
We used to talk for hours on the phone,
and meet on every weekend,
And after every meeting it felt like a dream.
Friendship was everything, and love heaven.

I miss our phone calls at all hours of day and night,
Our walks in the park and on the road,
Our bus rides, and bus stop dates,
Our Spice,McD and vatika hangouts,
Planning for the future in A380 suites,
Our messages and chats,
Our sharing, our caring for each other,
Our code words, and laughing on each other’s friends,
Joking about rains and clouds,
Telling each other everything that happened during the day,
No matter how immaterial that might be,
We could not survive without each other,
And now we cannot live with each other.

Now that you are gone, it pains to think
Not only have I lost my love, but my best friend as well.
It hurts to miss you,Hurts to think about the choices u made,
Its my mistakes, and I lost you forever.
But you have not lost my love,
You are my world, my haven
I can never forget you,
And it breaks my heart everyday,
To think I don’t have you, and can never have you,
Yet I miss you.

"memories r always confusing.. making u laugh wen u remember d times u cried together..
and cry when u remember the time u laughed together".

This is neither a poem, nor a prose,
This has no rhyme or rhythm.
It has got nothing, saying in the traditional sense,
just my raw feelings from the deep silence.

Happy Birthday dear bro...

Today is my younger brother birthday .. Don't know why but urge of writing something creep in my mind.
When i looked back to all those many years .in which .. we both grow up together .. we fight together .. we care for each other. ..We may miss each other . but didn't express it .. we joked, praised each other, feel jealous ( yeah you heard it right ..I do !!! ) about each other. All these years .. i didn't realise how lucky I m. How much love,care he gave me.In any situation whenever I felt drowning he was always there with lots of support , advice and effort to cheer me up.
I am always envy on his out of box, optimizing thinking and may be that’s why sometimes I use my Big B tag and go mad on him.
More I think about, more I adore him. I have seen him transforming from a don’t care teenager, who gulping all kind of roadside edible ( non ) , who always rebel about the decisions to a conscientious , mature adult. I still amazed the way he handled all the work in my sister’s marriage with me and dad only to help. Manner in which he handled the entire chronicle ranging from a sweeper/laundry boy to event manager / decorator was simply superb.
My dad always said to me in our childhood that I should have some qualities like him, and still after so many years his point is valid.
Thank you Rahul for being my life … thanks for giving me the respect of big brother and opportunity to love you as younger brother.

I wish she could be mine...!!

I saw her coming my way...
she looked perfect, divine...
i wish I could hold her forever...
i wish she could be mine...!!

she walks across smiling and gleaming
Shining brighter than the sunlight
I look at those glimmering eyes

And just wish she could be mine….

I wish u could feel the way i do..

I wish, to be with her...so she could see me shine...
yet…I am here, still, and mesmerized..

I wish she could be mine..!!

Her voice is like no other

Hoping she’d sing our song to me

I sat by thinking and praying

Wishing that she should be mine…

She is in my every dream...

She is in my mind…my soul..

I don't know...If i love her more than god…

Could she be mine?

My love for her is wider than the universe

Deeper than the ocean..Stronger than sunlight

Purer than clear water…But All I can do is wish…

Wish for the day,When in due time

She could be mine.But i know i can't...

As she is no longer here with me..

She is there in my memories now..

And there could stay. be mine..!!

I loved her then..I love her now..

And she will always stroll in my dreams...now and then...

All I can say is…love, You are the one…for me…forever and always..

I am eternally yours...And For me, you are mine...you are mine..!!

Drenched .....

...and then it rained

like your memories weren't enough to drench me.....

Part of My Life "'Alone in the crowd'

khush hai yeh aasman
khush hai yeh zameen bhi
dil toh hai khush
par aankhon main hai nami si

khushi jhalke har chehre par
khushi chhalke har baat main
sab hi hain aas paas
phir kyun tum ho sirf yaad main?

hasi hase mere saath
khushi aankh michauli khele
naache khushi main dil
par tum bin adhure hai yeh mele

hairan hai koi
aur tareef hai har kahin
par jo baat sunni sirf tumse thi
woh jaane kho hi gayi kahin

tum hote toh mujh par bhi koi garv karta
tum hote toh sab jaane kaisa hota
bahut samjahaya baawre mann ko
par maan hi jaata toh kya 'mann' hota??


khush hoon ki kuch banaya tumne
kuch banna abhi baki hai
khush hoon ki udhna sikhaya tumne
par udhaan toh abhi baki hai


hawa ke har jhonke main tum lagte ho
baarish ki har boond main tum hi ho na?
bheedh main agar tanha hoon, toh saath lagte ho
mujhe udhte huey dekh toh rahe ho na?

Mobile Phones defined ..

Toot gaye hai taar jameen se
Hath me aaya hai cell phone
ab to dil ki awajo se..
jyada sunte hai Ringtone

pehle nanihaal se phone aata tha
uncle ki dukan par
har insan dil me rehta tha
har no jubaan par..

ab to unreachable hai hum
pehle ki tarah aajad nahi
ab apne no ke siva
koi apna yaad nahi

ab to mutthi me hai duniya
phir kyo hum sabsedoor hai
network bhi apna busy hai
kyaa kare majboor hai

pehle bacche dosto ke ghar
lekar jate the bat aur ball
ab to bas bahar se hi
kar lete hai missed call

har har chotti baat ke liye
do shabd nahi bole jate
thanks kehna ho ya sorry
SMS se hi samjhate

kyaa remote kyaa calculator
computer ka bhi baap hai
ungliyo pe chalti thi duniya
ab sab anghootha chaap hai

kyo pairo se cheen kar jameen
ajnabi sky diya
phir bhi khushi se kehte hai hum
wah sir jee "what an IDEA"

credit goes to me n my roomies..:):)

Twang of my thoughts Part 2

Free Will
Whatever we do, whatever we say.. we do it for ourselves - good or bad. We make someone happy, it is because we wanted to. We did something wrong its we who decide too. We choose to be mean. We choose to see someone happy. And since it is our choice what we do.. we can't expect them to do something in return. You are a good friend because you want to be. S/he is not because s/he chose so. Thats my explanation of free will. You can choose to believe, not believe, to be happy, to be sad, to be angry, to love, to feel loved.

Life is like Ludo..(yeah the board game)
(Ok lower the eyebrows, and miffle the laughter at my weird ideas.) Just like the game, you have a path and you have a destination. The destiny is the dice. You don't know what you'll get when you throw the dice. You get a number, a situation and you get a choice, what to make of it. You can choose which counters you can move. Some times you have a lot to choose from..sometimes you don't.( hmm.. the theory isn't finished... yet. But its a spark.. I mean start.)

Change is the only constant
(you try to derive I mean drive it and it is zero, (nerdy pj.. u'll get it if passed 12th with maths :P, you'll get it faster if you had failed. :P:P))I am amazed at just how dynamic we are! You are changing every minute every second. You are not the same person you were a while ago. A thought, an idea, a word, a song... something... something pops up into your mind.. turning keys of this machine and your mind is on fire! What will be the outcome when it slows down.. you can't even guess now. It will be something you have not been before. Yes we may do the same things. The event or action may be the same.. but the doer is transformed! Its something like a chemical equilibrium. It may seem static but it really is dynamic. The old keep on moving away and the new keep on adding in.

** As me and my dear friend ( who really writes well ) were discussing, whenever two people meet, it really is a chemical reaction. (Ok aaj chemistry bahut yaad aa rahi hai..lol). This was probably a quote I read somewhere, but really, whenever two people meet and talk even for a while.. they exchange ideas, vibes, thoughts, energies. And the two are left changed after the interaction. The change can be big or small depend on the inteREACTION. but yes.. we are changed.. we get something new, are reminded of something old... but finally we are ..yes you guessed it.. changed!
Dunno how much any of it makes sense to you right now. Will try to be clearer with more experience ;) ;)
Till then, Love and a spark of fire for your head! :)
Smoke it up!