Diving into childhood..

Just completed Snow man .. aahh .. tired . my whole body is still in strees from snow goose bumps.
One of the best thing being in North US is .. plenty of snowy days .. It was awesome fun.. after a long time threw "Mature mannerism " and dive into childhood.After a long time doesn't care about anybody.And you know what it was .. it is pretty satisfying.It has been more then 3 months living alone ... nobody to talk.But now i realise .. why you care about others .. you yourself capable of having so much fun.Making a snow man .. is like creating a human by a God hand .  how do you want to him be look like .. how would be his face expression... how tall . faling to put some proper fat ( i mean snow ) .. or mistakenly putting extra weight .. imagine ..It is simple life less a blog of snow .. If God created us . how much time it take him to create a so exqusitic , complex and marvelous human body.
Being in doctor's family .. i got a chance to peep one of the most rarest places , like twin lobes of mind ( MRI and 4 D images ) , complex and crucial funtonality of human heart.. it always amaze me . how distingushly and marvelously human body has been crafted .. and we  "selfish bastards" just destory it helplessly...ahh too philosphycal ..
I need a Hot chocklate now .. c ya .. pics .. i ll upload .. to dark to get a pic .

You are here to be you... just you,...

I read a story which resemble to my life events .. here it is ..

A plum once said, just because a banana lover came by, I converted
myself into a banana. Unfortunately, his taste changed after a few
months and so I became an orange. When he said I was bitter I became an
apple,but he went in search of grapes. Yielding to the opinions of so
many people, I have changed so many times that I no more know who I am.
How I wish I had remained a plum and waited for a plum lover.

So true .. many times in life i changed .. i pretend to be what i am not.I pretend to be that person which he/she like.. i have done all possible things for that.lie , manipulations ..
I always run towards that admire, that praise ..and then pretend.. It never gave me happiness .. One day I realised it was all vain.I realised Just because a group of people do not accept you as you are, there is no necessity for you to strip yourself of your originality. You need to think good of yourself, for the world takes you at your own estimate.If you doesn't love yourself . how come other can??? If you bored with your company how can others ..
You need to think good of yourself, for the world takes you at your own estimate. Never step down in order to gain recognition. Never let go of your true self to win a relationship. In the long run, you will regret that you traded your greatest glory - your uniqueness, for momentary validation.Even Gandhi was not accepted by many people. The group that does not accept you as you is not your world.There is a world for each one of you, where you shall reign as king /queen by just being yourself. Find that world... in fact, that world will find you.What water can do, gasoline cannot and what copper can, gold cannot.The fragility of the ant enables it to move and the rigidity of the tree enables it to stay rooted. Everything and everybody has been designed with a proportion of uniqueness to serve a purpose that we Can fulfil only by being our unique self. You as you alone can serve your purpose and I as I alone can serve my purpose. I am here to be me .. just me and You are here to be you...just you.

I need an inspiration

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on...

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need em again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind..

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere..

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions..

There are moments when I don't know if it's real,
Or if anybody feels the way I feel,
I need inspiration,
Not just another negotiation..

Drenched .....

...and then it rained

like your memories weren't enough to drench me.....

Prayas Talent club - Starting a new Dimension in Prayas

From the long time , A thought is thumping in my mind. In Prayas we teach kids .. We gave lot of effort .We try our best. No doubt kids are always amazing. In spite of whole day school, condition in their home they eager to learn, eager to study more and more. Their pace may be slow , but they are trying really hard.
All effort paid off when 21 of our kids selected in Nayi .And our 5 old kids got good rank and marks.
However there is always a thought, a tease is there. In our school days we used to study in similar boring fashion. I am really proud of my teachers of school days. But now it’s our responsibility, it’s our creativity to deviate that similar way of teaching. Why not we started a class which not only give them learning but also give them some fun, enjoyment. We already know these kids have talent, but somebody need to bring that up. Some body need to give canvas to these young mind to draw their dream, somebody need to give them a platform to perform.
Vocalizing a thought is always easy .. but execution is always a daunting task. After many meetings , and literally using my full vocal power , the suggestion has been welcomed in one of our admission celebration. As I am initiator of thought, the responsibility came to me to execute the idea.
Now start the thought process, what are the activities which need to be planned, what will be games to be play .. how to relate them from teaching, how to relate them from kids daily routine life yet give them fun and uniqueness. It is really a daunting task.
Google is always a big rescuer in that. Isn't really amazing, whatever you wanna know just type in google and here comes all sort of information .. ( i know there is a brilliant algorithm of page ranking executing in behind ). After lots of information gathering/editing a final plan come into the picture. Now I am eager to execute this plan on coming Saturday the time slot ( 3- 5 pm , venue new class room of Prayas ) provided to me.